soda anyone?

hmmm I really need to start blogging more. I have so many random and what I think are sure to be amazing thoughts that some of you would maybe want to hear. Also, I think I really need a soda right now. Do you know that feeling where you just like NEEEEEEED it or you cant function...whelp I think that is me right now....ugh...So I think I should start posting swatches and videos and pictures and such on here, but I dont think that is what I wanted my blog for. I wanted it to be able to rant almost like an unpersonal diary. who knows....ugh ...k ...this was gonna be longer, but....I need a soda. lame. peace

can you feel it in your heart?

Have you ever been in such utter bliss that there is no words to describe it? You are so content and happy that nothing else in the world matters. I never thought that this could be it. That I could actually feel this feeling. I love it. Love is what makes the world go round. If you dont have love you have nothing.You are left empty and emotionless. I never could image going back to feeling doubt and sadness. Not saying that when you dont have someone you are nothing ...you still are who you are I mean Love just so pure and perfect and it completes the little broken pieces in your heart, mind, and soul. Once you fall in love it is the hardest thing to fall out of....So before you take the big leap make sure your heart can deal or that utter bliss will wither and you will fade.

get that feeling?

Remember when you were a child and nothing else mattered but just being a kid? Now in the place we call the "adult world" everything matters. I cant help but feel emotionless in which everything should matter. The anger that I have held in for so long just wont go away. I feel it and see it everyday. It scatches at my heart. I can try and close my eyes and forget but you still fill the black void. I keep holding you close yet I want to set you ablaze. It hurts so damn deep. Im on the 18th floor balcony and I just want to jump. SCREAM. [at the top of my lungs] You took my mind and all my thoughts and turned them to word vomit and I cant help but want to purge. I try to sleep and still see you in my dreams. FUCK. YOUR EVERYWHERE. Anywhere and everywhere I dont want you to be. I should have known what I was getting myself into huh? Ill be loves suicide. Ill fight my way back from the dead and whelp... Keep seeing you. Until then...Good day.